"The worst enemy to creativity is self-doubt." Sylvia Plath
I have noticed a peculiar habit. In the moments prior to clicking the send button to submit a new story to a magazine, I feel like the story is well-written, creative like no other. The instant the mouse makes the click noise, I am convinced that the story is crap, boring and no one would ever want to buy/publish it. Self-doubt at work.
I have spent a life trying to overcome the crippling effects of self-doubt. As a drummer, I would crash and burn on drum solos. As an actress, I'd forget lines. I have seen first hand that self-doubt truly is a creativity killer. The difference in the here and now is that I'm older, and I recognize that to be creative, a person has to flow. And trusting the flow involves a certain amount of risk. Scary, but necessary.
I've experienced the absolute power of drumming a solo that knocked people's socks off. I have had a whole audience laugh at the right time, because of the delivery of my lines. I know I can do it. I just need to ignore the loud banging of fear and listen only to the still, small voice that says, "Yes, you can."